web log - saturday, september 15, 2001

day 62. i waited patiently for the lord, he inclined and heard my cry. he brought me up out of the pit, out of the miry clay.

i don't watch a lot of t.v., regardless of what's on. i just don't enjoy it. unfortunately, i was watching during a news report of violence and attacks on innocent arab-americans. i had hoped that by now, the 21st century, that racism and racial violence, for any reason, would be minimal. unfortunately, it seems i was hoping for the impossible. i am saddened and ashamed to admit that these "racists" are my fellow countrypersons. i understand that they are hurt and offended by the terrible actions of a small group of eastern arabs. but to suggest that *all* people of arab-descent "shouldn't even be in america", is a statement that could easily have been heard in germany in the early 1940s. some of the people attacked were even third-generation americans, with their parents and grand-parents even serving in our armed forces. it's just sad to see that prejudice and racial hatred are still very much alive in modern america.

hannah did good last night, sleeping from 11pm to 4:40am. my wife got some nice sleep. i can't ask for much more.

peace, spudwrench


web log - friday, september 14, 2001

day 61. o beautiful for spacious skies, for amber waves of grain, for purple mountain majesties, above the fruited plain! america! america! God shed his grace on thee, and crown thy good with brotherhood, from sea to shining sea!

i'm not an emotional person. i don't get choked up over sad movies, sappy songs or animals dying. i've had close relatives die and i've only shed my tears "on the inside". but i've heard several stories during the aftermath of this tragety that have brought me to the brink of real tears. stories of people buried under the rumble and calling their loved ones, stories of fire fighters and police officers dying while doing their jobs and a story of a class of 1st graders in new york city making peanut butter and jelly snadwiches for as many fire fighters and people as they could... simply because they (the 1st graders) wanted to help out. stories like these make me wish i could be "that strong" or "that courageous". i'm all teary-eyed just writing this. i honestly wish i was one of those 1st graders, just to know that i was doing something good after something so bad just happened. thank you, 1st grade class of new york city... thank you for reminding us that peanut butter and jelly sandwiches (and the love and care that were put into each one) are what can help heal our nation's pain.

hannah was up a couple extra times last night. my wife didn't sleep much. hopefully, tonight will be better.

i've been playing quite a bit of "balder's gate" on my new laptop over the last several days. it's been my main escape from the sadness of these recent events.

peace, spudwrench


web log - thursday, september 13, 2001

day 60.

world trade center attacks. wow. what can be said. my heart and prayers go out to everyone that is even remotely touched by this event. i hope that we find *all* of the people involved (in any way) and bring them before an international court. and watching the video footage over and over got old really fast.

hannah's doing great, sleeping from 11pm to 5am pretty consistantly.

my new laptop is great. works nice and fast. whee.

peace, spudwrench


web log - monday, september 10, 2001

day 57. well I'm hot blooded, check it and see, i got a fever of a hundred and three. come on baby, do you do more than dance? i'm hot blooded, i'm hot blooded...

hey! once again, last night was pretty good. my wife fed hannah at about 10:00pm and we put her to bed at about 11:00pm and she slept until 4:40am. she was up for an hour, then went back to sleep for another hour. nice. she was a little on the fussy side today but she didn't do too bad. tonight i managed to get some video of my wife talking to hannah (who was on the changing table) and hannah talking right back. she never really talked to my wife much before. tonight she (hannah) talked up a storm. it was a very good thing.

i finally got my laptop today. p3-1ghz, 256mb ram, 32mb nvidia video, 20gb hd, 15" uxga screen. very nice. it came with a kenneth cole leather carrying case. extra nice. i went ahead and put windows xp final on it and it's working quite well. i partitioned the 20gb hd into 2 partitions (16.5gb & 2.5gb, i know it doesn't total 20gb... blame dell). i'm gonna try to install redhat linux 7.1 on the smaller partition. but it might screw up my windows xp... oh well, nothing ventured, nothing gained.

peace, spudwrench